Lack of “Will” for Will Power

How does one get will power
Buddhila patat ahe ..
Manala samjat ahe...
Sharilala zepat ahe....
Kalat ahe pan walat nahi....
How does one get over this,
Every now i then  i remember the “Spider story”...and start over...
But its just the start..maybe i do not find the real need for the change,the routine,the descipline, to follow up on the start...
Lack of will power(some would say)
Where do you get that,how does one get it..
Maybe one needs to ...have enough passion, be desperate enough for “A” particular thing..
To start and finish something..
The search for the “Will” continues
11.10.2019

The sinking feeling

The sinking feeling
Lo this “Sinking feeling “ puts up its head again and pulls me down...
It doesnt care about beautiful surroundings,amazing locations,warm hearts & home,welcoming people...
You are not a part of this...that’s what one feels..
As your loved ones ... move to a diffrent house,city,country...”You” are left with a void in your heart..
Oh seeing the adjustment issues,of “stay at home adult children” look daunting
What’s better? The daily adjustments or the vaccum?
When children friends family move away, and form a new world /circle of their own...( I do have my own circle too)
It seems like you are no more in their orbit ... you are a spectator out in the outer realms..
One must prepare for this eventual event(if i may call it so)...but how
You do have your own work ,hobbies etc
“Invest in yourself “ think of yourself first...
But hey isnt this in contradiction to what you’ve been told/taught since childhood...
“Live selflessly”...
Weaving your life around people,putting others first..puts you in a vunerable spot..
The quest now becomes getting over this vunerability...

A Life of Travels

Its been a while since i have been travelling ,
The annual trips to mumbai
The visits to my hometown
The world travels
The annual trip to Vineet’s
This trip is a bit emotional,as Amu leaves home..

A few things seem  different now...
i seem to have become more Observant...

Observe  Accept Adapt... keep moving ,
We could be talking about life as well
You meet new people they share their stories,
Histories of their world(their versions..based on a few facts)
these stories enrich you,make you think more deeper,
you have no expectations from them,you just listen ,not contradicting,not arguing...
Whats different when travelling...
....wish we could see our life as a big travel...
Observe Accept Adjust..Move on and keep Travelling😎

Not without my mobile

"Cant you leave your Mobile aside ? At least for an hour ? 
My first thought of the day, as  I start my day at 6 a.m at the gym.(though you need to applaud all those regulars at the gym ) 2 out of 8 people  will  sport their mobiles too.
What is so important? Is it an addiction?Do you really need to be connected every moment? Why cant you focus on the workout?.... and many more questions boggle me every  morning .
All of us see simmilar scenes throughout the day, On a dinner outing  we came accross a family sitting down , each one of them on their respective mobiles,connecting to the world but indifferent to each other  :(
As you leave the house for your job , college, entertainment ....the one thing that we do not forget is our Mobile.
We surely are a "Not without My Mobile"generation

But little did i know that I would be forced to think more about the topic, when my Smart phone suddenly gave up on me today morning...
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All the earlier self beliefs crashed as i realised how much this "Mobile" ment to me, how i relied on the "Mobile" for every small & big chores,starting with the morning alarm to daily reminders, Playing Games, checking mails, browsing the net while waiting in lines,And most importantly this connected me with  my children throughout the day across the continents,the faithful Mobile was also used as a note  book  ( in absence of pen & paper) to pen down "Ukhane" at a recent family function  :)

 Feeling Lost, Losing an arm, emptiness, disconnected.....even feeling peaceful...and so on...so many emotions in a day,
"I Have lots of free time" was another startling revelation
I cannot now deny the importance of mobiles in our lives & feel lucky to be a part of this" Mobile generation".
And  as i try to utilise my smart phone at its maximum
I have also made a promise to myself to use/ rely on my memory too, {Was my smart Phonesmarter than Me :) :) } as i realised that  i can remember only a few phone numbers only  :(

I sincerely wish we use our mobiles with a little bit more caution, as there are reports of health hazards too.

Once again wishing to be less dependent on my mobile and never be able to say "Not without my Mobile"

Hoping to be armed with a  new "Mobile" or rather a New "Smart Phone" soon  :)